Oops...

I was pretty sure this would happen. After I accomplished my goal of the 8k I may or may not have dropped off the face of the earth. I wish I could say that just because I didn't keep up my blogging I kept up everything else, but alas, I slacked off. So. Round two. Here's what I've realized. This is going to be a life change. It's going to be doing great, then maybe not so great...and the biggest thing is never giving up. Thanks for being my biggest fans, love you all!

ALS Betty's Run

June 12, 2011...Remember in my first post I said I was going to do a 5K on June 12? Well guess what today was? My run. But here's the kicker! I ended up doing an 8K instead, that's 5 MILES!  It was definitely not easy, but I DID it! Thanks to Chelsey, my friend and my SFL coach. She stayed right beside me and made me feel like I could do it. Here's the thing. They had the 5K walk/run which I know I would have done really well at, but then they had the 8K run which I KNEW would push me out of my comfort zone. I think this is the first time in a long time I've made a tangible goal and accomplished it. It's an amazing feeling. Thanks for believing in me everyone. I love you all.

Taryn

I'm still here

Sorry everyone. I've been really busy trying to get my house ready to sell. BIG JOB!
So. Last night me and my ladies ran 4 minutes, walked 1 minute. While I was running and thinking I might DIE, I realized that the first week of running 1 minute and walking 4, I thought I would die then. But I didn't. Then and now. I'm not sure how much I love running yet. Actually I'm positive I hate it. I am still just "doing" it, but I hope to get past this hatred of pushing my body well past the point of discomfort. We run 5 minutes, walk 1 minute tomorrow and I'm pretty much TERRIFIED! I'll get over it. And once again, I'll probably survive the run. Ha.
I haven't seen any difference in the scale yet, but I feel my body tightening and feeling a lot more energy. I'm really hoping that I start to notice more physical results, but I know that it will come if I keep it up. Wish me luck tomorrow!!

Run 3, Walk 2

"I've got the black lung, Pop." (thank you Zoolander). Holy crap tonight was a tough run. Is there a difference in elevation from Lethbridge to Calgary because my run before this was a BREEZE compared to tonight. Regardless, I DID IT! Next week is run 4, walk 1. I'll be ready!
So this is completely random and has nothing to do with my exercising. Is it just me that has NEVER been on a vacation in my married years? I mean, we did go to P.E.I. two summers ago so I guess that could count, but I mean, hop a plane, and head to sunny beaches...a cruise...anything. We didn't even get a honeymoon...sad. Kyle and I are so old fashioned and feel like we have to have all our debt payed before we do something like that, but if we DO wait, we'll have kids in school and all kinds of other complications. Do you all just go for it and pay for it later? Seriously it feels like everyone I know has been on a vacation recently or is planning one soon. Blast! Anyways, that's my rant. Here's my thought...when I get to my half way point...small vacay. And when I hit my goal, goodbye Canada! Hello Hawaii...or someplace amazing. :)

Go me!

So this might be no biggie for anyone else, but I was pretty proud of myself last night. I'm only on my third week of running and I am pretty sure the first couple weeks we didn't actually go the full 5K distance. Last night I did a full five kilometers in 47 mins. Running interval training, 2 minutes of running, 3 minutes of walking. I felt great after and iced my foot right after so I've had no problems with it at all today. There is seriously nothing better than feeling sore ALL over. I love it because I know I did something that is great for my body. And it took me out of my comfort zone. I'm running a 5K on June 12...I'm feeling SO excited about it!

Taryn

It's me again...

It's been a couple of days since my last post and I'm still on the right track just in case you were worried. Haha. I have been busy working on my house (we are going to list it this next month), trying to rest up this foot/leg of mine.I'm going to miss out on tonight's run (I have a sick little babe) but I'm not worried, I'll make sure I will catch up with the other girls for next week. I'm really happy with how I've been eating this week and I feel great! One week down, five weeks to go!...for this contest anyways.

Taryn 

You can do anything...

This video made me cry all morning. I can't believe how talented she is even with this disability. If you just listened to her and didn't ever see what she looked like you would never know the difference. Unbelievable! I have no excuses. I have all my limbs, I have health and strength, I have family and friends. I have the gospel * in my life. I have everything I need to go forward. Have an amazing Sabbath everyone!

Taryn

*When I added that link, I thought I was on the wrong site at first because the picture looked like President Bush. Just sayin'. Haha.

New Shoes

I tried to take it easy on my foot yesterday and it seemed to help a lot. It's still painful today, but I can hobble around better, wearing my new runners around the house. Yesterday I went to The Running Room and they were SO helpful. Plus I have 30 days to change my mind and make sure they are the shoes for me. (I can't wear them outside without voiding the policy, but a couple days around the house I should be able to tell.) Here are my new best friends.

I weighed in last night. Good grief I have a long ways to go. But it helped knowing all my measurements, they are written down somewhere in a binder...there's no going back now!  I decided last night that when Kyle is back this week I am going to sit down with him and come up with some prizes for myself as I reach different milestones. I've realized that I've made food my reward in the last few years. "I got a lot accomplished today, I deserve icecream." or something to that effect. NO MORE! I really need a pedicure so my first 10 pounds should be that. The thing I am most excited for when I'm all done this process? Being able to dress in clothing as cute as my kids'. Finding out what my style is instead of just find clothes that I can make look okay. Its not that I dress horribly, but the options will be ENDLESS. If you are reading this Kyle, don't worry I won't put us in the poorhouse. Haha.

I've had a great day today...I'm decluttering and cleaning. All part of the process to a better ME! Thanks so much for all your support. My friend Anona is going to do my progress photos. I'm not excited to see what I look like now, but when I'm at the end it will be amazing to look back at and see where I was. Hope you all have an awesome weekend! Stay warm to all of my fellow Albertans who looked out their window and saw yet ANOTHER snowfall. Sick.

Taryn

HELP!!

So our run went amazingly well last night, until I hit about the half way mark. Then my right foot cramped up SO badly! I kept it up anyways, but by the time we finished I was seriously hurting. It felt like a knife was going through the middle of my foot. OUCH! I woke up this morning and I can't even put any weight on it. Great. I think I am going to book an appointment with my accupuncturist and I am buying new running shoes today. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?! Don't worry, this is just a little setback. I'll be better soon.
On the schedule today:
I have an appointment with my Simply for Life consultant to talk about my week. Then I my weigh in tonight for our Weight Loss Challenge. Oh, and I'm feeding our Sister missionaries tonight too...almost forgot, whoops. Have a great day everybody!!

Taryn

Running Group

Okay so tonight is my running group's first time going out together. I'm nervous but really excited because I would LOVE to love running again. It used to be a nice release, but lately it has been more of a burden. When I was little I lived in Cardston on the corner of Town's Square and I remember having dreams about running around the block. Ha. Sounds weird but it was my favorite dream. It was so EASY, effortless and I didn't ever feel like I needed to stop. It made me want to try it for real. I remember the feeling of running around Raymond and how easy, effortless and peaceful I felt when I had that ability. So that is my motivation for this group. I am going to get there again. To that place. I've got my running shoes by the front door, I'm headed to Costco to get some running bras (my coach says it will make a HUGE difference in my comfort level.) and then you'll see me and my group trotting about town tonite at 8! :) Have a good day making YOUR goals become reality!

Taryn

Day 2

Thanks for all the support everybody! I REALLY appreciate it! I find that I am the most determined right before I go to bed. I tell myself that "tomorrow is going to be an EASY day." I'll eat right, exercise right, etc. Then I wake up the next morning and find myself being tempted right away. I baked cookies this weekend and so instead of helping myself to one I just finished dumping them in the garbage. Wasteful? Maybe, but I'd rather be wasteful than waist-full. Point 1 for me, cookies 0. So now I'm going to find something for breakfast. I'm supposed to be trying no sugar, no dairy, no processed foods. So cereal and milk are out. Smoothie it is. Day 2 is off to a good start!

Why is this so scary?

Am I really doing this? I guess so. This is me, holding nothing back and putting myself out there. And. It. Is. TERRIFYING. Am I afraid of being judged? Yes. Am I afraid of people knowing what is really going on with me? Yes. But more than fearing those things, I'm afraid of not being held accountable and not making the changes that I so desperately need to make. I am a perfectionist who has everything falling apart around me because if I can't do something perfectly I would rather not do it at all. I guess that is partially what has brought me to where I am today. This is going to be my new journal. One that I actually write in more than once every two months. Ha. I am going to make the changes that I need/want to make and I sincerely think that the only way for me to do that is to let people in. I've been fighting a  battle within for years now. I feel ugly. Fat. Horrible. Tired. Undesirable. Moody. I want to feel beautiful. Motivated. Happy. Sexy (Yup I want that one). I understand that a lot of people feel that way a lot of the time. And don't get me wrong. I am happy in most areas of my life. I have the most loving and amazing husband around. I have two beautiful little girls who love their mommy more than anything. I have wonderful family and friends, but I HAVE to remember how to love me. I hope you don't read this and decide I'm too down on myself because while I'm being harsh I do have HOPE. I know my potential and THAT is what this is all about. I've been through a lot in my life and I've come out on top in a lot of areas. While this will mainly be about my successes and journey of weightloss, I know that other things will come into play. I love comments. I need the support and motivation. If there is anybody else who wants to join my journey with me I'll be your biggest supporter and fan. 

So here's the down-low. I am 25 years old, turning 26 in July. I weigh...nope I can't give a number yet because I'm too chicken. But I'll say I have a starting goal of 80 lbs to lose. I have a membership in an amazing program called SIMPLY FOR LIFE, I have joined a running group which starts this Thursday. I am signed up to do a 5km run on JUNE 12, and I signed up for a "Biggest Loser" Type contest that begins this weekend. Wow. Here I go, wish me luck and if you see me at the store, peek in my cart and make sure I am only buying healthy items. :) 

Me and my Dad at my graduation...looking good I'd say.

Who is this person? My reflection is a stranger ...

So I'm doing this. There's no going back now. Please comment. But be nice. WISH ME LUCK!!! I'll keep you posted!